Shitty Gossip

Backstory - Hange and Levi are colleagues and friends at the Stohess Art and Design School. Levi’s a professor of fashion and grooming while Hange’s a History of Art professor. This happened on a Thursday before the semester ended. It’s pre relationship.
Is it possible for a relationship to begin based on gossip. Do two people who appear to be have complementary traits have a chance of pursuing a romantic relationship? Hange hypothesised that it was possible even if the other person, whom her colleagues have been trying to matchmake with her was neat-freak Levi. A definite contrast to Hange’s, systematic-disorganized personality.
Right now Hange was eavesdropping a pair of assistant lecturers named Sasha and Connie, who were saying that it would be a match made in heaven, as Hange will benefit from having someone who could help make her life more organised. Hange frowned at that accusation, she knew that most people that her office looked like a hurricane just flew past, but these brats barely knew her. She does not need someone to manage her life, maybe as a romantic partner but not as a life coach or something, so seriously their comments were unjustified. With anger simmering, she tiptoed towards them wanting to correct them. She was about to come out of her hiding place to confront the two when Levi walked past her and pulled her aside by her hair. He tugged quickly but gently startling Hange who almost gasped out loud.
“Are you eavesdropping on them?” he asked. They have known each other for ten years since they started as assistant lecturers and now full lecturers. Levi always knew when Hange was being a busybody.
Hange knew it was better to be honest so she sighed and told him. “You know I never loiter around the hall unless there’s something happening. Anyway what are you doing here? Need a model to demonstrate hair washing?”
Levi let go of her hair majestic hair ponytail and signalled her to follow him to his office. When he passed her, Hange caught a whiff of Levi’s perfume and her heart melted. He smelled good but suddenly she felt awkward doing that. Especially after hearing about the gossip.
They walked past Connie and Sasha who asked them about the weather, “Going out to celebrate the end of semester senpai? Connie here is treating me to Italian tonight.“ Sasha greeted them while grinning sheepishly.
Levi paused and glanced at them. “Instead of gossiping while putting up posters all over the faculty, why don’t you two open a booth at the main lobby to invite students to the career expo. Find a more active approach to attract people there.”
Connie grinned bigger and saluted Levi, “Will do senpai, that’s a good idea.”
Levi nodded and went on his way, while
Hange winked at the assistants as she followed Levi. When they reached Levi’s door she saw that the door was locked. Levi reached into his bag for his keys

Meanwhile, Hange looked into the distance, to the corridor where Sasha and Connie was. She repeated the gossip in her mind, but… there was no way Levi and her could ever be more than what they are now, friends, colleagues, teammates.
Levi eyed Hange with a questioning gaze as he slotted his key into the door. He was sure she was overthinking as usual over some stupid gossip the assistants talked about. As he opened his office door, Hange turned to him. Her eyes were looking dull and tired.
“Hey, it’s been a long day and I haven’t washed my hair since last week. I should go back and wash up first and we can meet later? Like tomorrow when I’ve finished writing my proposal.”
Levi wondered which proposal was she talking about, she was planning to research a lot of things and has been up to her elbows with proposal writing. Levi didn’t think it was proper for him to comment on her work so late in the day, so he minutely pushed himself on his toes to reach her ponytail. Her magnificent bushy ponytail was her go to hairstyle for everyday class. Now messier since it’s at the end of a busy working day
He squeezed her unruly ponytail for a second and let go. “It doesn’t feel that greasy. Next time when you have time, come by the school beauty parlour. I’ll get Ymir and Historia to wash and treat your hair. We just brought in some new hair treatment brands to test. The hairdressers out there don’t know shit about how they can do more for your hair beyond conditioning.”

Hange laughed, “At least I get a good gossip from Moblit about Erwin’s new secret love interest. So see you around Levi.”
It took Levi a second to realize why Moblit would be doing Hange’s hair. Moblit Berner who was Hange’s former assistant quit last year after heart surgery and became a hairdresser at his own salon. While digesting that fact, Levi went straight into his office and left Hange outside.
As for Hange, she watched Levi enter his office and wondered if she should just join him and make up some excuse about not wanting to wash her hair since he said it wasn’t that greasy. But her emotional side told her that she better get home and rest, and maybe sleep on her thoughts. So she followed her thoughts and turned away towards her car, thinking of home.
Meanwhile Levi reached his desk and turned around to see Hange not following him into his office. She has been acting weird lately. Weird as in not being literally in his personal space after classes. Or during weekends when they need to do some extra work around the faculty, she didn’t linger around like she used to. But Levi didn’t dwell long on it, knowing that Hange would soon get the hang of her dilemma or problems, whatever that made her like that. She was always logical, and he counted on that side of her to bounce back to a more positive note. He hoped that she should be acting like her regular self soon.
Levi sat down and opened his study planner, he should be thinking about his next semester’s study plans but instead he was thinking that, maybe he should have invited Hange to have dinner outside. Take her mind off things. Hange might need some friend’s intervention to settle the things chasing her moods away. He wanted to care and do more as her friend, since they knew each other for several years now. But he thought that she needed space this time. He’ll bother her tomorrow or in a few days. Her hair will need washing and next time he’ll catch her at an earlier time than today when she wasn’t that tired looking. Levi looked back at his planner and pushed Hange back into the threshold of his mind to deal about later.
Getting it on with the pre relationship mood.

Happy New Year 2018

I know that I haven't been here much since I've been somewhere else but I'll still keep this blog going. Here's a fanart I did today. Have a nice positive 2018!

What plagues your night

I used to have mind convos with myself when I was younger. The conversation which sometimes end up with me being angry at myself for being such a loser in terms of money, wealth, material things, aspirations, success and everything else. I can't remember ever saying nice things to myself during those moments and the ones I remembered were mostly about feeling bad for my self.

I am not the kind to think so lowly of myself, sure I wasn't the prettiest, not the smartest, I was a shopaholic so money was not accumulated in the bank and therefore I was aware that I wasn't getting any wealthier. But those self condemning thoughts were abundant and when I think back I never had a thought at night where I was being thankful to Allah for giving me a healthy body which enabled me to work and gain RMs to go shop around. There was no balance between my self condemning thoughts and my positive thoughts.

The saying that count your blessings is actually better said than done. In my years as an angsty teen and later self-condemning adult I was secretly jealous of people who succeeded in their thing. It was just thoughts since I never acted upon them and now as I think about them all the best thing to do was just wish them well and move on. Just as I try to forget about that embarassing moment where I walked into a glass door at a shop, I should also do the same with my jealous habit.

Now I am focusing in me, in building a better me for the future. I no longer spend night convos about me being a loser for the day, but neither do I count my blessings. Meanwhile life goes on and I stay the same, I should move on, and change my thoughts on what success means to me. Success is a changing thing to me, but right now it means the ability to be in peace and continue life positively.


I just watched Shingeki No Kyojin awhile ago and had some fanart drawn. I am so in love with Hanjo, at her characteristics and her close friendship with Levi, of which we in the fandom would interpret as a loving relationship.

Here's a Hange.

By the way I deleted all my fanfiction from this blog. You can read them on my Wattpad and Archive Of Our Own. I want to start writing my own fiction so I will be putting those original fictions here instead.

Levi and Hange

This blog is going to end up as a picture blog I think. I will share more pics in the future since I have moved my ramblings somewhere else.

This is Levihan fanart, introducing Captain Levi and Commander Hange Zoe from the anime Shingeki No Kyojin aka Attack On Titan. They are my ultimate ship at this moment so I am going to draw and colour a lot of them.

My colouring is shitty, as Levi would have said, but I like the way I drew Levi. He's like so seriously listening to Hange. BTW I think Hange looks like Cindy Crawford here, and to me she does not look too crazy here unlike her original design in SNK.

To those still reading and following me, thanks for reading.

I drew this - fanart

These were just some doodlings i did on a weekend.

Some drawing + colour pencil and a touch of water. A genderbend of my otp. I accidentally smudged my ink lines when i was adding water. Pardon my skill, I am amateur in drawing and colouring.


Some doodle I did two days ago. It's back to art school tomorrow. 
I should prepare some pencils and papers tonight!

Best video for me this week

I did a lot of watching videos, it's like I have been watching Youtube for the first time in years. Here are some of the best videos for me this week.

5 Seconds of Summer acoustic performance of their own song Voodoo Doll. This video is from 3/4 years ago and one comment said that they looked like they were dancing with their instruments. These lads are talented though I found their voices quite pitchy, well they are teenagers at this time.

Well, they made school instruments sounded cooler than we remembered.


I also watched Sisters Slam Dunk or Unnies Slam Dunk season 1 and two and they were fun. Through these videos I found more about Korean's biggest female acts, and Minzy from 2ne1. The program was fun and very revealing of South Korea's many crews behind the scene team.

You're beautiful - a rewatch

I was contemplating doing homework but was so sleepy that I decided to rewatch this video instead. Lol. I missed the overly dramatics of a drama series and now taking too many away time from assignmenst alamak!

So I started rewatching from episode 10. Hey let me describe this chapter by chapter.

Episode 10.
Where the bratty popstar He-Yi threatened MiNam/MiNyeo. She demanded that MiNam confess her true identity as a punishment for liking Tae-Kyung. So defeated MiNam/MiNyeo dressed as a girl and tried to tell the truth about herself and their situation at a press junket. She walked into the theatre while the lights were off but the moment the lights went on, Tae-Kyung locked eyes on her and she was instantly pulled into an embrace by Shin-Woo. So with her face pressed into Shin-Woo's shoulders the press couldn't see who it was and Shin-Woo immediately admitted that the girl was his secret girlfriend. Shin-Woo immediately pulled her into the make up room away from the press and their manager.

Episode 11.

Basically the episode where everyone is okay with MiNam being a girl without asking for an explanation. Ok the explanation was that MiNam/MiNyeo's twin who is a male named MiNam was supposed to be the one in the band but was MIA, so a manager with the company asked MiNyeo to take over his place. Therefire MiNyeo assumed MiNam's identity here and began the charade. So MiNyeo was about to go meet Shin-Woo's supposed girlfriend but was held down by Tae-Kyung who in a fit of emotional outburst kissed her. lol. Drama right.

Episode 12

So they kissed but the kiss was awkwardly ended and they both went home light headed. MiNyeo then oveheard Tae-Kyung confessing to He-Yi that she was nothing to Tae-Kyung. Obviously Tae-Kyung the no nonsense guy was telling lies to He-Yi. the singer was nothing to him and he gained nothing by telling her anything. The silly but cute scene in this episode is the scene where Tae-Kyung escorted Mi-Nyeo up to her room. The silly girl had some lotion in her eyes and was unable to look even after washing her eyes with water so had to be escorted to their room upstairs.

That's all I had the time to watch in fast forward and then lunch time ended.

The Hmmmmms

All drama have these elements which makes it endearing, scary, make people connect to it. My grouses when it came to this drama are :-

Why MiNyeo is subjecting herself to Tae-Kyung and agressive approaches. Was not she attending a convent which must have somehow teach her about bullying or something. Also why she let He-Yi bully her into all sorts of things. Why is she so submissive because of her love and awful brother?

He-Yi is so one dimensional and that's not a good thing. She was the only true villain in here, apart from the clueless press photographer bent on finding the mystery girl, and Tae-Kyung's mother who is selfish in everything she does.

Shin Woo's character could be better expressed. Jung Yong-Hwa actor who is a member of band CN Blue is quite wooden in his acting, unless he's angry. He's quite expressive and frightful in the scene where he was angry at Mi-Nyeo for deserting him at their supposed dinner/date.

Why are all the kissing scenes between MiNam/Mi-Nyeo and TaeKyung looks like they are all one sided. Maybe they were portraying MiNyeo's innocence, who was educated in a church.

Tae Kyung is one sob, when it came to dissing the girl who had nothing to do with his mother.

The cuteness

Park Shin-Hye has great comic timing and she is a dramatic artist. She is like a girl next door and I adore her acting.

The inclusion of fanfiction in episode 14. Tae-Kyung mentioned that their fans would be writing about love triangle between him, Shin-Woo and Jeremy. Lol. I cringe at this as I am also guilty of creating a non-canon relationship between two characters.

Tae-Kyung being confused about his emotions, but evolving along the way. I find it a little odd that all the brainy characters are male while all the females are clueless, too innocent and too submissive. Yes I was looking for that word exactly.

Shin Woo was pining and it was cute while it lasted.

The three die-hard fans who provided the other perspective of how fans sees their idols falling in love and their reception of their fave band's new member.

If this was made in 2017

Jeremy wouldn't be having problems with himself having feelings for MiNam whom he knew as male.

They would probably have real fb page and accounts, it's the era of social media.

That's all I got on a sunny Saturday. I'm scheduling this for later tonight. Have a nice long weekend.

Hey there, here's for artistes

Hey this is nice for artists - painters, sculpters, the synonyms and photographers. Deadline is 31 st August 2017. Log in at (don't ask me how, I am not sure how you sign in)

Link :

I just knew about this a few hours ago and still figuring how to download the form. :(




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