Sunday, August 03, 2014

17 days of being mom of two boys

Actually it's not so bad to have a newborn and a 3 year old together, along with a few pair of helping hands too. Life has been a bit of a roller coaster these past 17 days. It is still early to say how I am doing as a mother of two. So far I only have to entertain a baby who feeds at the boobs and cries when he soils his nappy, rarely cries unless really in need of something.

Just imagine being in this open and noisy world at 17 days after 910 days in a floating chamber. Surely you need more than 17 days to feel at ease in a new surroundings. After all I have another 27 days of confinement so all I need to do is worry about baby. So I should cuddle up with him as much as I could.

All a baby does is cry and cry to convey his needs. But a 3 year old screams and rams his way into everything. My elder son has welcomed baby with open arms so far. He kisses the baby every hour or so and the baby has made him drink his milk more often. He also suddenly eats rice like 4 times a day.

I just bathed baby yesterday and it was cool, also cooked my own lunch... albeit a simple one. Fried chicken with garlic and black pepper gravy. Thank you Allah for giving me these two babies. I hope to be a good mother to them. Hopefully they will grow up as responsible human beings full of love.

While we are in for a long journey, I hope that I could raise them both and be sane and not so emotional at the same time like I did with my first son. There were times when he would cry everytime I cook and he was 9 months at that time. Now I don't feel panicky when my baby boy starts crying especially when he has just fed his milk. The key to balancing is being composed and don't let your anger get the best of you. Well bye!

Saturday, July 26, 2014

9 days of confinement

Aloha. I gave birth to my dear second son (DS2) on July 17th. It was a normal birth compared to my first baby who was delivered via caesarian section. So here I am now at my Mom In Law's (MIL) house recuperating.

Normal childbirth is painful but the soreness which came after is more annoying. But Alhamdulillah it gets better. The pain at the place where they cut me to ease baby's exit was painful at first. But at 9 days post date it has become kind of annoying, painful at times but bearable. I hope I will feel more ok by Hari Raya. Alhamdulillah Allah answered my prayer to have a normal birth and a little earlier than my due date so I can be more ok come raya.

Well. I will be posting non regularly of course. Confinement is a time to think about one's body and baby only, or at least the majority of the time. I still have aches on my body especially when I stand too long, sit too long or bend too much. So to help me recover MIL got me a confinement set to use externally and some traditional herbs like Manjakani and Sepang to drink. She bought me a confinement set and found me a lady masseuse to massage my aches away and so make me feel better. The masseuse told me she even massaged my MIL more than 3 decades ago when MIL gave birth to my husband.

I'll update when I feel not too sleepy. See you all later.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

July Give Away

Ok. So I just got this sewing machine and spent like every hour dreaming about sewing. This morning while waiting for my laundry to finish, I spent about 10 minutes sewing a pocket for you my lovely readers.

For a chance to win this t shirt with an animal motif pocket, you must go to my Facebook page here and like it. Heheh, hey nothing is for free ok. After that comment here, where you'd wear this to? The best answer to me will win this shirt. It is M sized and black in colour.

The shirt.

Close up of the pocket.

If you win this give away but am particular about the pocket design, because it has piggies on it. I will sew another one if I have the time. If not, you'll get what you see here.

Have a good day!

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

38 weeks and 3 days

Physically I feel ok, emotionally I feel like crap. 
I don't mind getting attached 24 hours to an infant again but I mind that when I give birth it's almost raya time.
So many people will be visiting and I will have less me time with babe. 
I adore my privacy, more so when I am in confinement.
Confinement is full of physical pain, pain where the baby gets out - be it via the vajayjay or via caesarian hole.
Pain free confinement to me only comes after a month, so i am hoping for a VBAC - vajayjay birth after c sect.

My first born is so ready to be a big brother soon.
I told him baby will play with dad and I will play with him.
They said if we promise baby that his baby brother will soon be a play mate for him, that's a bit cruel as a baby usually takes a year to walk and interact with older kids. So I promised him that as soon as I finish my confinement I will spend time as usual with him.

My son is going to be 3 years old this mid month so I can just let him run around while I do things.
Right now he is totally like a best friend rather than a son. 
I can understand 60 percent of the things he says.
He even attempts at making simple jokes now. Like when someone farts, he says out loud. "XXX yak" which means "Mummy takes a dump." And he follows that up with "Pa yak" (Dad too) "Nenek Yak" (Granny too) "Tok Yak" (Grandpa too). Lol. He even makes believe feeding his soft toys when I feed him rice.

He also understands when he I can't pick him up, especially when my baby bump is tightening at that time(Braxton Hicks, as they call it. It's like the muscle practicing for actual labour). I also started referring to my baby bump as baby to him and whenever there were babies around I pointed it out to him. But i don't actually know whether he understood that the baby in my bump is going to be his partner forever. Hope he understands it instinctively.

Monday, June 30, 2014

Purse : No Pattern

I finally settled my last installment on my sewing machine. The preloved machine costs me RM400 and it took me 3 payments to make it mine. RM400 isn't a large sum but I wasn't really going to use it promptly so I controlled my 'ngidam' and use my money on something else before finally settling the last payment last week.

So I have a sewing machine which doesn't scare me to bits as it wasn't too fast nor was it hard to use. It was easy peasy to learn especially a machine newbie like me. I had a little help from my mother in law and also the manual book, glad I didn't bought the new sewing machine which costs RM500, three months ago . Although I don't know much about sewing machine but I knew that the one my mum bought for RM1000 back in 1998 or 1996 lasts almost 2 decades. It's zig zag function is broken but still usable. But since I want a functional machine, I decided to buy myself instead of taking  my mom's.

So while waiting for my everyone to get ready to go out last Sunday, I whipped out my sewing machine and started experimenting. This was the result. I took the pattern from Pinterest but did it according to my ability. It is full of a newbie's marks but I am happy with it. Although next time i think I'll have to buy a more quality zip. This one feels lame and I think if the user is a ganas one, it would ruin quickly as purses are used heavily each day.

The front side.

 The back side.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Fiction : Separation (preparation for nanowrimo)

Sometimes the best way to love someone, someplace or something is to leave it and go away. Never look back for a while, just ponder about it from afar. Like the Malay sayings "If you love your wife, leave her when the need arises, and if you love your child discipline them. In Malay it’s sayang isteri tinggal tinggalkan, sayang anak tangan-tangankan.

After awhile when the heart grows fonder, return and embrace it back. If it seems awkward and uncomfortable maybe it's time to do something else or find someone else. Sometimes the things we really want are not always what we need.

Note: what is Nanowrimo you ask me? Click this.

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Breaking Out Of A Rut

I think in whatever work that we do if the work comes into some kind of a routine we will at one time feel like we are stuck in a rut. My work starts to feel like that too. I will give birth in a month's time and I will be in a new life not so far away but knowing that I will probably be doing the same kind of work right after maternity leave - kinds of dampers my spirit. 

Well, it may be just me while my co workers all feels the same but like Allah has said. Only you can change your fortune, so I shall seek ways to change my present situation. At least how I feel about work.

I just came across this link titled 4 Ways To Break Out of a Creative Photography Rut by Mike Newton.

He offers 4 tips to get out of a photography rut. Okay so this is getting out of a photography rut, but it could also be applied to life in general.

1. Get out of your comfort zone – physically
2. Learn something totally new and uncomfortable
3. Try a new style of shooting
4. Start an ongoing project

Let me elaborate on each of his tips and how I shall apply it to my life.

1. Get out of your comfort zone – physically
This sounds easy but actually harder to do. One extreme take on this is to transfer to a totally new office in a different department. My qualm is that since I am going to have a newborn and it's hard to find proper childcare for a very young baby, I should postpone a transfer to any office which requires me to work on shifts - at least until my son is a year old. Since I also plan to breasfeed my second son, I think I should stay in this office. 

So physically means maybe I should start redecorating my work station to something which represents a new workplace. I actually have a tonne of things to get rid of but I am really attached to these material items. I should start throwing away some things today.  

Getting out of my comfort zone could also mean that I should expand my work onto other area. I realize I can speak English quite good should I practice more so maybe I can find some voice over jobs at my office's TV or Radio Networks and go for auditions for MC gigs. I am a bit shy about going to auditions but before this rut starts rotting me I better start getting out of my comfort zones.

2. Learn something totally new and uncomfortable
I want to learn how to build a website. Since I am probably going to be in the new media industry I better start learning more things associated to it. This knowledge is no just for work but also crucial to other parts of life. 

Yesterday I borrowed an office mate's HTML text book. She is a pharmacy graduate but ended up a programmer in my office. So I should derive a lot of inspiration from her. She did study HTML in university so she has prior experience in it but I have also dabbled in HTML before even if it's only minor editing in my blog. 

3. Try a new style of shooting - try a new style of ___________
In my line of work there are 10,000 approach to doing the same thing. But since I had to do most things myself so I am beginning to feel a bit resentful and this negative feeling eats me away. I am thinking whether I should ask my boss to relegate these tasks officially even though the ones who should be doing it are plainly ignoring it... or just quietly go into my maternity leave.

4. Start an ongoing project
I should start a research on this. No idea so far. I will post on this later.

"Getting in a rut happens to us all at one point or another. What ways have you guys found to kickstart your creativity? I’d love to hear your suggestions in the comments below."Mike Newton

I have a Canon 1000D with a broken 18-55 lens and a Canon 60D with a 18-200 lens which keeps giving me the error signal when put together. In December 2013 I got preggers and morning sickness came with it, and adding to that mix a digital camera Casio TR150  - all these factors left me out of any SLR actions. I think I only took my Canon 60D along with a 50mm lens for a rendezvous 2 months ago. I realize that I might have less time to go on a photoraphy rendezvous once baby came so I might go have a photo session with my firstborn that day rather than later.

Since then I have been taking pics on my Casio and also using VSCO cam uploaded on my handphone. A different kind of method used then but still photography.

Anyway I was supposed to go to a 3 day photography and photo / video editing course in Penang this Thursday, but since I have an appointment with the doctor on that date I think I should decline. My husband is against me going and since it's 4 hours from KL and involves a lot of things like having to lug a laptop and a luggage bag and me being at 35 ++ weeks, I really have to decline that offer.

Ok bye.

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