Kancing Itu Butang
Aku nak cuba menulis dalam bahasa melayu kerana aku asyik mencari meme Sherlock dalam bahasa inggeris sahaja. Bahasa penghubung maklumat jua.
You used to be young, a baby in the careful hold of your mother. Then you could run like the wind but still clasped in the embrace of your guardian. Next you were single, then you get attached to a bevy of friends - a boyfriend - a friend with benefits, and sail away into years of life of your choosing.
You learn to be independent, you learn to drive a car, you learn to use public transportation, you buy that CD which contained the lovely song you heard a few times on a radio, and you rest when it all gets too overwhelming, whether from life, work or relationship.
You find people to share your joy, to exchange ideas and talk about some serious or fluffy things. You go out, have lunch, have coffee or simply sitting side by side just reminiscing about old stuff while you still can. While the similarity in background is still deemed significant, whether it be a history of recent years or 14 years ago.
You ponder about the future, about your past, about the recent history of certain things, about the deaths of friends and colleagues, about other peoples perception of you, about your perceptions of people immediate to you. You don't really care about people who have no immediate connection to you, like how a friend would say "it's not like you pay for my wedding, so it's up to me to tell you or not."
Some things are better left unblogged to not attract mommy wars like bre@stfeeding, babywearing, attachment parenting, choosing to mix feed (bre@st milk + formula milk) vs exclusively bre@stfeeding. You have disagreements with your in laws, child carers about what to feed your babies, using a walker or not, and other periodical issues.
You learn to trust your instincts when they conflict with your feelings, learn to not second guess yourself when your acts and choices are being questioned, listen to opinions but only comply if you whole heartedly believe in it.
Life is a thousand phases, a few years you will do this one thing you adore, you savour the moments, while at the same time ceasing to do other activities and leave it in the past. Starting a phase and gradually ending it, and maybe once every few years get into doing it again.
Life is a thousand phases, it only ends when you drop dead. The after life is another phase, but that's a different blog post.
There are many ways to make use of free time, and one way is to act like you don't own any free time. Like you are busy all the time and therefore anybody who wants to meet you, they must make an appointment so they will think that your time is so full of things that you must make prior engagements in order to meet you.
ps: a snippet of words for my upcoming inexistent novcl
In another note, I am using my 3 weeks of spare time to analyze everything Sherlock BBC. So you will see a lot of it pouring in my future posts. I just love the show and its fans, they do a great job analyzing the cinematography, shots and costumes. I wish it is colder than cold in Malaysia sometimes, so I can wear a long winter coat and pretend like I am Sherlock :P
This is how you get a flawless skin selfie, ok apart from your camera phone having a beautify setting. Make the lights work for you. Don't just shoot yourself in some kind of dark lighting, walk around to find the best light. Natural light is friendly, so take a selfie by the window and go through trial and error. Adieu.
Goodbye to sweet old times. Just a friend from college. I may have been romanticizing things instead of the truth. I just see but do not observe.