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What plagues your night

I used to have mind convos with myself when I was younger. The conversation which sometimes end up with me being angry at myself for being such a loser in terms of money, wealth, material things, aspirations, success and everything else. I can't remember ever saying nice things to myself during those moments and the ones I remembered were mostly about feeling bad for my self.\

I am not the kind to think so lowly of myself, sure I wasn't the prettiest, not the smartest, I was a shopaholic so money was not accumulated in the bank and therefore I was aware that I wasn't getting any wealthier. But those self condemning thoughts were abundant and when I think back I never had a thought at night where I was being thankful to Allah for giving me a healthy body which enabled me to work and gain RMs to go shop around. There was no balance between my self condemning thoughts and my positive thoughts.

The saying that count your blessings is actually better said than done. In my years as an angsty teen and later self-condemning adult I was secretly jealous of people who succeeded in their thing. It was just thoughts since I never acted upon them and now as I think about them all the best thing to do was just wish them well and move on. Just as I try to forget about that embarassing moment where I walked into a glass door at a shop, I should also do the same with my jealous habit.

Now I am focusing in me, in building a better me for the future. I no longer spend night convos about me being a loser for the day, but neither do I count my blessings. Meanwhile life goes on and I stay the same, I should move on, and change my thoughts on what success means to me. Success is a changing thing to me, but right now it means the ability to be in peace and continue life positively.

Fanart

I just watched Shingeki No Kyojin awhile ago and had some fanart drawn. I am so in love with Hanjo, at her characteristics and her close friendship with Levi, of which we in the fandom would interpret as a loving relationship.

Here's a Hange.



By the way I deleted all my fanfiction from this blog. You can read them on my Wattpad and Archive Of Our Own. I want to start writing my own fiction so I will be putting those original fictions here instead.

Levi and Hange

This blog is going to end up as a picture blog I think. I will share more pics in the future since I have moved my ramblings somewhere else.

This is Levihan fanart, introducing Captain Levi and Commander Hange Zoe from the anime Shingeki No Kyojin aka Attack On Titan. They are my ultimate ship at this moment so I am going to draw and colour a lot of them.

My colouring is shitty, as Levi would have said, but I like the way I drew Levi. He's like so seriously listening to Hange. BTW I think Hange looks like Cindy Crawford here, and to me she does not look too crazy here unlike her original design in SNK.


To those still reading and following me, thanks for reading.

I drew this - fanart


These were just some doodlings i did on a weekend.



Some drawing + colour pencil and a touch of water. A genderbend of my otp. I accidentally smudged my ink lines when i was adding water. Pardon my skill, I am amateur in drawing and colouring.

Doodle


Some doodle I did two days ago. It's back to art school tomorrow. 
I should prepare some pencils and papers tonight!


Best video for me this week

I did a lot of watching videos, it's like I have been watching Youtube for the first time in years. Here are some of the best videos for me this week.

5 Seconds of Summer acoustic performance of their own song Voodoo Doll. This video is from 3/4 years ago and one comment said that they looked like they were dancing with their instruments. These lads are talented though I found their voices quite pitchy, well they are teenagers at this time.



Well, they made school instruments sounded cooler than we remembered.



Metalicca!


I also watched Sisters Slam Dunk or Unnies Slam Dunk season 1 and two and they were fun. Through these videos I found more about Korean's biggest female acts, and Minzy from 2ne1. The program was fun and very revealing of South Korea's many crews behind the scene team.

You're beautiful - a rewatch

I was contemplating doing homework but was so sleepy that I decided to rewatch this video instead. Lol. I missed the overly dramatics of a drama series and now taking too many away time from assignmenst alamak!

So I started rewatching from episode 10. Hey let me describe this chapter by chapter.


Episode 10.
Where the bratty popstar He-Yi threatened MiNam/MiNyeo. She demanded that MiNam confess her true identity as a punishment for liking Tae-Kyung. So defeated MiNam/MiNyeo dressed as a girl and tried to tell the truth about herself and their situation at a press junket. She walked into the theatre while the lights were off but the moment the lights went on, Tae-Kyung locked eyes on her and she was instantly pulled into an embrace by Shin-Woo. So with her face pressed into Shin-Woo's shoulders the press couldn't see who it was and Shin-Woo immediately admitted that the girl was his secret girlfriend. Shin-Woo immediately pulled her into the make up room away from the press and their manager.


Episode 11.

Basically the episode where everyone is okay with MiNam being a girl without asking for an explanation. Ok the explanation was that MiNam/MiNyeo's twin who is a male named MiNam was supposed to be the one in the band but was MIA, so a manager with the company asked MiNyeo to take over his place. Therefire MiNyeo assumed MiNam's identity here and began the charade. So MiNyeo was about to go meet Shin-Woo's supposed girlfriend but was held down by Tae-Kyung who in a fit of emotional outburst kissed her. lol. Drama right.


Episode 12

So they kissed but the kiss was awkwardly ended and they both went home light headed. MiNyeo then oveheard Tae-Kyung confessing to He-Yi that she was nothing to Tae-Kyung. Obviously Tae-Kyung the no nonsense guy was telling lies to He-Yi. the singer was nothing to him and he gained nothing by telling her anything. The silly but cute scene in this episode is the scene where Tae-Kyung escorted Mi-Nyeo up to her room. The silly girl had some lotion in her eyes and was unable to look even after washing her eyes with water so had to be escorted to their room upstairs.

That's all I had the time to watch in fast forward and then lunch time ended.


The Hmmmmms

All drama have these elements which makes it endearing, scary, make people connect to it. My grouses when it came to this drama are :-

Why MiNyeo is subjecting herself to Tae-Kyung and agressive approaches. Was not she attending a convent which must have somehow teach her about bullying or something. Also why she let He-Yi bully her into all sorts of things. Why is she so submissive because of her love and awful brother?

He-Yi is so one dimensional and that's not a good thing. She was the only true villain in here, apart from the clueless press photographer bent on finding the mystery girl, and Tae-Kyung's mother who is selfish in everything she does.

Shin Woo's character could be better expressed. Jung Yong-Hwa actor who is a member of band CN Blue is quite wooden in his acting, unless he's angry. He's quite expressive and frightful in the scene where he was angry at Mi-Nyeo for deserting him at their supposed dinner/date.

Why are all the kissing scenes between MiNam/Mi-Nyeo and TaeKyung looks like they are all one sided. Maybe they were portraying MiNyeo's innocence, who was educated in a church.

Tae Kyung is one sob, when it came to dissing the girl who had nothing to do with his mother.



The cuteness

Park Shin-Hye has great comic timing and she is a dramatic artist. She is like a girl next door and I adore her acting.

The inclusion of fanfiction in episode 14. Tae-Kyung mentioned that their fans would be writing about love triangle between him, Shin-Woo and Jeremy. Lol. I cringe at this as I am also guilty of creating a non-canon relationship between two characters.

Tae-Kyung being confused about his emotions, but evolving along the way. I find it a little odd that all the brainy characters are male while all the females are clueless, too innocent and too submissive. Yes I was looking for that word exactly.

Shin Woo was pining and it was cute while it lasted.

The three die-hard fans who provided the other perspective of how fans sees their idols falling in love and their reception of their fave band's new member.



If this was made in 2017

Jeremy wouldn't be having problems with himself having feelings for MiNam whom he knew as male.

They would probably have real fb page and accounts, it's the era of social media.

That's all I got on a sunny Saturday. I'm scheduling this for later tonight. Have a nice long weekend.




Hey there, here's for artistes

Hey this is nice for artists - painters, sculpters, the synonyms and photographers. Deadline is 31 st August 2017. Log in at myceative.com.my (don't ask me how, I am not sure how you sign in)

Link : http://www.mycreative.com.my/news_events/visual-arts-pitch-2

I just knew about this a few hours ago and still figuring how to download the form. :(


Aktiviti tukar hadiah RM10

I like my recent mates at a recent course I attended. We couldn't get sponsors for events so we turned it into a personal thing by each providing a RM10 mystery present and then picking numbers randomly and assigning the list names to the number.

We had the course at Langkawi, a duty free island famous for cheap chocolates, compared to the Peninsular Malaysia price, so I bought chocolates amounting to RM10 (around USD2.30) and send it away to the new owner. Incidentally my best friend got it.

My mystery price was easily recognizable as a picture frame inside a plastic. But it was no ordinary frame, it held a picture of the boat I traveled in when we were on a mangrove trip earlier that day, luckily I was in the pic so the prize was really personal. The other course members told us that the gifter bought it at the jetty of the boat, well I did not notice that they were selling merchandises. It was a great day.

Some other gifts exchanged was a soft toy from Kaison, a mug, a bottle of bath gel with a RM10 note because the gifter thought that the bath gel was too cheap, souvenier keychain, beauty soap, jewellery box, and even a 3 day 2 night stay at Bandung, Indonesia (3 months prior booking).

Clearly the gifts' price did not matter, what mattered was the receiver was happy to receive them and that made the gifter very happy in return.

Boruto Series : My Review

Boruto the tv series was fun to watch. I thought it would be traumatizing to watch thinking that it'll be like filters in the Naruto Shippuden series but actually they are good and intriguing. Since it’s a continuation of an anime which affected my early adulthood, I was apprehensive at first about watching it. But Sarada was intriguing to watch though she came in small doses at first.

I loved and hated Naruto anime but I think Boruto was good from the start. Ok, not counting in Sarada's short dress though. It’s nice to see a mini me version of Naruto having a sister and mom unlike his orphaned dad. I have no opinions when it came to Hinata and Himawari so far so I won't go there.

Anyway I love Sarada’s no nonsense attitude and the use of tech in the ninja world. Hopefully in the future Naruto will have positive screen time with his son to continue his story here. It would be a shame to paint him as a very ambitious child dreaming about being a Hokage who changes the world only to fail miserably as a parent. A parent is not perfect but he/she is not made up of failures, even if you lived with your parent for a day there should be something he gave you - something small, something precious. Ok this talking about Dads who actually takes care of you even for a day. Anyway some screen caps from the movie.

Thankfully the Boruto art is different from the manga ones.


Sad Boruto is sad.


The first foreshadowing of Sarada and Boruto's eventually being teammates.


Inojin and Shikadai, with Metal and someone else as background.


I love ChoCho being very reasonable when Boruto .... ok no spoilers.


Badass kunoichis, I don't know who the extras are. 
The pink one is ChoCho - Chouji Akimichi's and Karui's daughter.


Using ICT in ninja world. Cool.

Bonus!
Spoiler!




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Suddenly a wild Mitsuki appears.


While Orochimaru ran around with Tenzou, his child was snooping on Boruto and gang.



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