38 weeks and 3 days

Physically I feel ok, emotionally I feel like crap. 
I don't mind getting attached 24 hours to an infant again but I mind that when I give birth it's almost raya time.
So many people will be visiting and I will have less me time with babe. 
I adore my privacy, more so when I am in confinement.
Confinement is full of physical pain, pain where the baby gets out - be it via the vajayjay or via caesarian hole.
Pain free confinement to me only comes after a month, so i am hoping for a VBAC - vajayjay birth after c sect.

My first born is so ready to be a big brother soon.
I told him baby will play with dad and I will play with him.
They said if we promise baby that his baby brother will soon be a play mate for him, that's a bit cruel as a baby usually takes a year to walk and interact with older kids. So I promised him that as soon as I finish my confinement I will spend time as usual with him.

My son is going to be 3 years old this mid month so I can just let him run around while I do things.
Right now he is totally like a best friend rather than a son. 
I can understand 60 percent of the things he says.
He even attempts at making simple jokes now. Like when someone farts, he says out loud. "XXX yak" which means "Mummy takes a dump." And he follows that up with "Pa yak" (Dad too) "Nenek Yak" (Granny too) "Tok Yak" (Grandpa too). Lol. He even makes believe feeding his soft toys when I feed him rice.

He also understands when he I can't pick him up, especially when my baby bump is tightening at that time(Braxton Hicks, as they call it. It's like the muscle practicing for actual labour). I also started referring to my baby bump as baby to him and whenever there were babies around I pointed it out to him. But i don't actually know whether he understood that the baby in my bump is going to be his partner forever. Hope he understands it instinctively.


Kausar Amin said...

moga dipermudahkan semuanya. salam kenal:)